Thoughts

(I know everyone in Utah County has a blog, I don’t expect much to come out of blogging, except the fact I really hate journal entries and that makes blogging a lot easier, plus, it feels good to hear positive comments from my followers about my oh so special blog, (Thanks mom)

I must admit…. Life right now isn’t hard. Yes, it has its hard moments, but as a whole, I don’t have much to complain about. Its kind of in the "Blah" phase.. where every day feels like the same old routine day in and day out. With that being said, heres my thoughts for today, Cheers. 

1)I wish I could have some sort of direction in life right now… I have absolutely NO idea what I’m doing.

2)I feel like I work my life away, but I only work around 50 hours a week.

3) If I could, I would chose to go to bed at 10PM every night.

4) Since when is being 100 pounds so important? Because lately that’s all I think about.

5) I cant wait to settle down, (AKA find a potential husband, I mean Im getting old, I turn 21 in August ;) )

6) Dating sucks though

7) My rent is due… ITS ALWAYS DUE

8) I chopped off my hair and I feel out of place because every girl in Utah county has hair like the Princess Rapunzel

9) Lately, Ive been falling asleep while reading my scriptures and saying my prayers, but I like to think I wont go for hell for attempting to do the right thing

10) I miss my missionaries, I will cry tears of joy when they start returning,  I LOVE P-DAYS  

 I like to think someday when Im dead my kids will find my blog and they will carry on a family tradition of blogging… But if not that’s cool too, they can still be grateful for my insightful blog entries. Until then, I will be waiting patiently to see what curve ball God is waiting to throw next. I love it when my life flips upside down... Ill keep y'all posted. 

D&C 123 16-17

My favorite scripture is found in D&C 123 16-17…

16. You know, brethren, that a very large ship is benefited very much by a very small helm in the time of a storm, by being kept workways with the wind and and waves.

17. Therefore, dearly beloved brethren, let us cheerfully do all things that lie in our power; and then may we stand still, with the utmost assurance, to see the salvation of God, and for his arm to be revealed.

Be assured that there is a safe harbor. You can find peace amidst the storms that threaten you. Your Heavenly Father—knows of your heartaches and suffering. He loves you and wants the best for you. Never doubt this. He has promised the faithful peace even in their trials and tribulations. And how beautiful that is. That we can find perfect peace through Him because he provided a way for us to find comfort in times of distress. God isn’t asking us to conquer the world, or do the impossible. He is simply asking us to try our best, and make the best with what we have given. And stand still. God expects us to have enough faith to stand still when difficult times arise, and enough determination to trust in his plan for each and everyone of us. God is anxiously waiting to help us through this journey we signed up for, and I couldn't be happier that through Him, we can find peace and everlasting happiness. 

What If

What if I told you there was someone who knows you perfectly, someone who knows your flaws and weaknesses perfectly, someone who you can turn to and receive a perfect answer. I think we often forget that God is knows each and one of us perfectly.  There are times in life when we struggle, when we will plead and pray for help. I know there are times when you will feel like giving up, when life seems to be unbearable, but God knows that. God expected that each and every one of us are going to struggle and fall at times. And when we choose to turn to God in our time of need and despair, we choose to turn for peace. God will teach us about his sons unbearable/beautiful earthly ministry while He was here on earth. He will guide us to the comfort of Jesus Christ, because he too felt completely and utterly alone, and I don't find that to be a coincidence.  God have us the gift of a Savior, and the Savior gave us the gift of the Atonement. I know there are those who feel like they get nowhere when making the right choices. Those who feel like God has forgotten them. And those who feel like there's no hope in putting God first. But I can promise you making the right choices in life will pay off over and over again. You will be eternally grateful for the making the right decisions. ( I choose the statement "eternally grateful" because Gods plan is eternal)  But there will be times when our mind will be blurred from the sins of the world, and we will fall back into temptations over and over again. Elder Cook stated in the 2013 April Conference " Even with the trails of life, because of the Saviors Atonement and His grace, righteous living will be rewarded with personal peace"  The Latin meaning for the word Atonement means becoming one with God... I don't find that ironic. Christ once said "In me ye shall have peace" What a beautiful comfort that is.

Trust

People usually ask me why I stay up so late... Well here you have it. I have insomnia and can't sleep. So I blog. I write and write and write, but usually don't post. Secrets out.

After recently going through a dark time in my life when I didn't believe in God, or life in general, I felt so lost, and so confused. I thought I knew who I was, I thought I knew who/what I wanted... But boy was I wrong. The time when I felt completly and utterly alone, was the time my Savior felt closest to me. (Sounds cliche I know.) But it didn't feel so at the time. He allowed me stand alone, let me fall, let me beg and cry over and over for help. There were lessons to be learned. And I had to be completely alone to do so.  I look back on that time in my life and understand why I needed to go through that trail in life. Theres a million lessons to be learned when going through our personal "Gethsemane" moments here on earth. One that comes to mind is to TRUST in God. Trust that He knows best, trust that change in necessary to become more like Him. Trust: firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.  By exercising faith we are learning to trust in our Savior. Trust that he can get us there, even when all seems impossible and you feel like giving up. As we go through trails for His purposes (Not ours) He will help us. It will slowly but surly come generally speaking step by step, day by day. There will be times when it may seem unbearable, but He won't let you go through this journey alone. Every experience is needed for our own personal growth. And what a comfort that is.

His invitation, “Ask, and ye shall receive” (3 Ne. 27:29) does not assure that you will get what you want. It does guarantee that, if worthy, you will get what you need, as judged by a Father that loves you perfectly, who wants your eternal happiness even more than do you.

The Simple Things

I served in the Philippines Cauayan mission. My mission came to a close sooner than I anticipated. I served for a total of 6 months. And I can honestly say those 6 months changed me physically, mentally, and emotionally. For those who have served, I'm sure you can say it was the best time of your life and the hardest time of your life. At first before I served I thought that it can't be "that" hard... Oh boy was I wrong.

I truly believe that God calls you to a mission for you to grow in ways he needs you to become someday. Yes, it is for those "golden investigators" you'll meet along the way, and those companions you will someday call your best friends, for those mission Presidents that replace your parents for the time being. But it is also for yourself. I think a lot of time in the church we are told to serve others over and over, and that's something we should be striving for daily. But I also think we need to serve ourselves in ways that will benefit us, and help us in the future when we go through our own personal hell on this difficult but oh so beautiful earth. I think missions are perfect for each individual for that reason. Whether you were called by a prophet to serve in a foreign land, or if you might have that desire to serve but can't, we are all on our personal mission, "So keep on, journey on. Fan the flame of your faith."

The people of the Philippines taught how to be humble. They taught me pure happiness, pure innocence, pure courage, pure peace. They taught me everything I was lacking in my life. They made me cry harder than anyone probably ever could, only because they humbled me in a way I would have never learned without their example. They are the place I call heaven. I owe the person I am today to the people of The Victoria Branch. My mission president told me which brought him and I to tears, "Some missionaries learn what they need to learn in a short few months than what other missionaries learn in 18 months or 2 years."  I can honestly say that is oh so true. Everyone's missions are different, whether you're serving as a full time missionary or a member of the church. Everyones paths are different, but thats what makes life so worth living.