People usually ask me why I stay up so late... Well here you have it. I have insomnia and can't sleep. So I blog. I write and write and write, but usually don't post. Secrets out.
After recently going through a dark time in my life when I didn't believe in God, or life in general, I felt so lost, and so confused. I thought I knew who I was, I thought I knew who/what I wanted... But boy was I wrong. The time when I felt completly and utterly alone, was the time my Savior felt closest to me. (Sounds cliche I know.) But it didn't feel so at the time. He allowed me stand alone, let me fall, let me beg and cry over and over for help. There were lessons to be learned. And I had to be completely alone to do so. I look back on that time in my life and understand why I needed to go through that trail in life. Theres a million lessons to be learned when going through our personal "Gethsemane" moments here on earth. One that comes to mind is to TRUST in God. Trust that He knows best, trust that change in necessary to become more like Him. Trust: firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something. By exercising faith we are learning to trust in our Savior. Trust that he can get us there, even when all seems impossible and you feel like giving up. As we go through trails for His purposes (Not ours) He will help us. It will slowly but surly come generally speaking step by step, day by day. There will be times when it may seem unbearable, but He won't let you go through this journey alone. Every experience is needed for our own personal growth. And what a comfort that is.
His invitation, “Ask, and ye shall receive” (3 Ne. 27:29) does not assure that you will get what you want. It does guarantee that, if worthy, you will get what you need, as judged by a Father that loves you perfectly, who wants your eternal happiness even more than do you.
