This is Him

There was a talk that President Uchtdorf gave at a young women's conference a few years ago. The title of the talk was titled "Your Happily Ever After" He goes on to talk about trying to find your "Once upon a time,"and ending with "Your happily ever after." Theres a lot of "Once upon a times" in someones life... but is there a lot of "Happily ever afters"? Growing up throughout my teenage years, I referred to this talk almost weekly. Really wondering if someday I will really have my happily ever after, or is that really only found in fairy tales. Theres a quote in the talk that really stood out to me. “Happily ever after” is not something found only in fairy tales. You can have it! It is available for you! But you must follow your Heavenly Father’s map."

I think the hardest thing to do at times is put your faith in God and trust that he REALLY DOES have a plan. That this isn't just something you're told growing up... That if we really understood what that REALLY means, how different of a life I think we would be living. And I can tell you I found my "Once upon a time" with the boy of my dreams. He means everything to me. Since the day we started dating, my life hasn't ever been the same. Every day is so special, and something I cherish. He is my best friend, He's something I like to call my Safe Haven. Who would of thought we would get this far this fast? I was so unsure about everything that came along with dating someone new, but I was at complete peace and happiness moving forward. (I can thank God for that one) But this was/is the best decision I have ever made. To be patient, and follow Gods plan. I couldn't imagine where I would be without God guiding my life... No I do not believe in soul mates, but I do believe that someone, someday, will walk in your life when you're least expecting it and change everything you've ever had. And This is Him. This is the man I am going to spend the rest of forever with, and I can't wait.  Theres a million ways to tell someone you love them... I still haven't figured out the best way. Besides the simple words "I love you"  Ive started my "One upon a time". And this only happens once...I am loving every second of it. (At some point you will probably be reading this Josh, I want you to know how much I love you... You're the best thing that has ever happened to me, I can't wait for forever.)

 Well, its late... its exactly 2:25AM. And my lover boy fell asleep on me anyway. Its time for bed, Im tired, goodnight. 

Everything Works Out

So its been a while since I posted on this blog of mine. Not like I don't ever write, I just never post. Thank goodness for that "save draft" option. The more I sit back and think about my life, the more I realize that everything eventually works out. Eventually is the key word. But I like to say that "slow and steady wins the race" Well, I feel like applying that to every aspect of your life really is the icing on the cake. I feel like with the mindset that sometimes "things will never work out" is when we start to settle for less than what we deserve. We then start to believe that what we think we simply deserve doesn't exist because its to good to be true, so what do we do? We settle. I have watched several relationships fail because they decided to not fight for what they originally wanted. For what they thought they deserved. No, I don't think Mr.Perfect exists. But I believe there are those who are perfect for you. But you have to fight and work for what you want, those who are perfect for you also need you to be perfect for them. Maybe perfect isn't the best word to use, because let's face it, no one is perfect. But we know how to try our best and treat others with the love they deserve, and to me, that's perfect. Im no expert in any category of my life, I wish I was. But I know how it feels to follow your heart. And that can go a long long way. Life tends to continue to throw curve balls that really make you mature and then understand that "everything works out." Just in Gods timing. And I just had my world flip upside down, and I think it will continue to do so.

Ever have those moments in life that will mark a day in your own little history book? Those moments that really shake up your world? Well, I had one of those not to long ago, and holy crap, I never saw it coming. I fell in love. Love... You can love a lot of things. Like I love tacos, and I love the beach, but I never thought I could love someone so much I wanted to spend the rest of my life with them. That's something I always dreamt of feeling, not ever expecting it to come, and hit me so hard and so unexpected. I promised myself back in December that I was done with dating, and I was over trying to find "the one"... But then my knight in shining armor decided to show up. And he caught me off guard. He made me feel like the luckiest girl, even when he had no idea I was even falling for him. He would just look at me, and I saw our future with him. He would laugh, and I would laugh with him, and I fell even harder in love. He makes life worth living in.. And that's something that I was lacking. He makes me feel wanted, and important, like nothing in the world matters as long that I'm happy... And happiness I believe is the key to life. And he has shown me that beautiful simplicity to happiness. He's mine, and I'm his... Love is a crazy rollarcoster... And it will continue to have its ups and downs... But I can't wait to experience life by his side, I can't wait to laugh and cry through difficult situations because I know he will be there for me. And the only thing he has to do is look at me with the "it's going to be ok" face, and I'm at peace again. I'm so in love, and I couldnt be more excited for the future... Everything eventually works out, and how grateful I am.

2014

So this is how cleaver I am, I thought I would state 14 things I have learned from the fabulous year of 2014.

1. I have learned to truly love myself.

2. Don't settle for less.

3. Accept Gods will.

4. Being an adult means doing adult things, like paying for bills. (Which Id change if I could)

5. Accepting that friends/family are continually changing for the better/worse.

6. Living somewhere warm makes me a happier person.

7. Do what makes you happy.

8. Eliminate those who bring negativity to your life.

9. Serve others.

10. Few decisions will ever shape your future life more than who you choose to marry. So I'm in no rush.

11. Make the simple things in life, simple.

12. Be with those who bring out the best in you.

13. Alone time is my sanctuary.

14. Everything happens for a reason, and life finds a way of working itself out.

2014 was a year to remember. It has brought be closer to my Savior than ever before. It has taught me to be extremely patient with Gods timing, even when I think otherwise. It has taught me to work hard for what I want, (money doesn't grow on trees) It has taught me that it's ok to start over, its human to continue to start over, and what a blessing that is. Cheers to the year 2014, let's see what 2015 has instore🍻

Thoughts

(I know everyone in Utah County has a blog, I don’t expect much to come out of blogging, except the fact I really hate journal entries and that makes blogging a lot easier, plus, it feels good to hear positive comments from my followers about my oh so special blog, (Thanks mom)

I must admit…. Life right now isn’t hard. Yes, it has its hard moments, but as a whole, I don’t have much to complain about. Its kind of in the "Blah" phase.. where every day feels like the same old routine day in and day out. With that being said, heres my thoughts for today, Cheers. 

1)I wish I could have some sort of direction in life right now… I have absolutely NO idea what I’m doing.

2)I feel like I work my life away, but I only work around 50 hours a week.

3) If I could, I would chose to go to bed at 10PM every night.

4) Since when is being 100 pounds so important? Because lately that’s all I think about.

5) I cant wait to settle down, (AKA find a potential husband, I mean Im getting old, I turn 21 in August ;) )

6) Dating sucks though

7) My rent is due… ITS ALWAYS DUE

8) I chopped off my hair and I feel out of place because every girl in Utah county has hair like the Princess Rapunzel

9) Lately, Ive been falling asleep while reading my scriptures and saying my prayers, but I like to think I wont go for hell for attempting to do the right thing

10) I miss my missionaries, I will cry tears of joy when they start returning,  I LOVE P-DAYS  

 I like to think someday when Im dead my kids will find my blog and they will carry on a family tradition of blogging… But if not that’s cool too, they can still be grateful for my insightful blog entries. Until then, I will be waiting patiently to see what curve ball God is waiting to throw next. I love it when my life flips upside down... Ill keep y'all posted. 

D&C 123 16-17

My favorite scripture is found in D&C 123 16-17…

16. You know, brethren, that a very large ship is benefited very much by a very small helm in the time of a storm, by being kept workways with the wind and and waves.

17. Therefore, dearly beloved brethren, let us cheerfully do all things that lie in our power; and then may we stand still, with the utmost assurance, to see the salvation of God, and for his arm to be revealed.

Be assured that there is a safe harbor. You can find peace amidst the storms that threaten you. Your Heavenly Father—knows of your heartaches and suffering. He loves you and wants the best for you. Never doubt this. He has promised the faithful peace even in their trials and tribulations. And how beautiful that is. That we can find perfect peace through Him because he provided a way for us to find comfort in times of distress. God isn’t asking us to conquer the world, or do the impossible. He is simply asking us to try our best, and make the best with what we have given. And stand still. God expects us to have enough faith to stand still when difficult times arise, and enough determination to trust in his plan for each and everyone of us. God is anxiously waiting to help us through this journey we signed up for, and I couldn't be happier that through Him, we can find peace and everlasting happiness. 

What If

What if I told you there was someone who knows you perfectly, someone who knows your flaws and weaknesses perfectly, someone who you can turn to and receive a perfect answer. I think we often forget that God is knows each and one of us perfectly.  There are times in life when we struggle, when we will plead and pray for help. I know there are times when you will feel like giving up, when life seems to be unbearable, but God knows that. God expected that each and every one of us are going to struggle and fall at times. And when we choose to turn to God in our time of need and despair, we choose to turn for peace. God will teach us about his sons unbearable/beautiful earthly ministry while He was here on earth. He will guide us to the comfort of Jesus Christ, because he too felt completely and utterly alone, and I don't find that to be a coincidence.  God have us the gift of a Savior, and the Savior gave us the gift of the Atonement. I know there are those who feel like they get nowhere when making the right choices. Those who feel like God has forgotten them. And those who feel like there's no hope in putting God first. But I can promise you making the right choices in life will pay off over and over again. You will be eternally grateful for the making the right decisions. ( I choose the statement "eternally grateful" because Gods plan is eternal)  But there will be times when our mind will be blurred from the sins of the world, and we will fall back into temptations over and over again. Elder Cook stated in the 2013 April Conference " Even with the trails of life, because of the Saviors Atonement and His grace, righteous living will be rewarded with personal peace"  The Latin meaning for the word Atonement means becoming one with God... I don't find that ironic. Christ once said "In me ye shall have peace" What a beautiful comfort that is.

Trust

People usually ask me why I stay up so late... Well here you have it. I have insomnia and can't sleep. So I blog. I write and write and write, but usually don't post. Secrets out.

After recently going through a dark time in my life when I didn't believe in God, or life in general, I felt so lost, and so confused. I thought I knew who I was, I thought I knew who/what I wanted... But boy was I wrong. The time when I felt completly and utterly alone, was the time my Savior felt closest to me. (Sounds cliche I know.) But it didn't feel so at the time. He allowed me stand alone, let me fall, let me beg and cry over and over for help. There were lessons to be learned. And I had to be completely alone to do so.  I look back on that time in my life and understand why I needed to go through that trail in life. Theres a million lessons to be learned when going through our personal "Gethsemane" moments here on earth. One that comes to mind is to TRUST in God. Trust that He knows best, trust that change in necessary to become more like Him. Trust: firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something.  By exercising faith we are learning to trust in our Savior. Trust that he can get us there, even when all seems impossible and you feel like giving up. As we go through trails for His purposes (Not ours) He will help us. It will slowly but surly come generally speaking step by step, day by day. There will be times when it may seem unbearable, but He won't let you go through this journey alone. Every experience is needed for our own personal growth. And what a comfort that is.

His invitation, “Ask, and ye shall receive” (3 Ne. 27:29) does not assure that you will get what you want. It does guarantee that, if worthy, you will get what you need, as judged by a Father that loves you perfectly, who wants your eternal happiness even more than do you.